Can you believe it is the middle of August already? Where has the summer gone? Time seems to be flying by so quickly.
I just realized this morning how fast the year is going. Although looking back it seems as if a lot has happened this year. But fall is right around the corner and then the holidays and then... 2023 is almost over.
I know it doesn't seem as if it is almost over. There are four and a half months to go. Lots of time to do lots of things. But I am thinking how fast my life is going.
Maybe it's because in four and a half months I will be hitting a milestone birthday. One I am not looking forward to. One I thought I would never see.
Maybe it's because I have seen four dentists now and still have no answer to what I am supposed to do about my tooth with the cavity under the gum.
Maybe it's because my cardiologist keeps telling me how close I am to a deadly stroke and life-threatening heart attack. Every time I see him he tells me how fortunate I am to still be alive because I am on borrowed time.
Maybe it's because I so want to move out of this house and into one where I can get around better. Being hardly able to do steps and living in a three storey (four if you count the basement) house is hard. Very hard. And very, very painful.
I want my life back. I want the year back. I want all of my problems to go away. *sigh*
I guess I'm just feeling depressed today. Because I have so very much to be thankful for.
For instance, I have a house to live in. Some people live on the street. Some people have nothing to eat. I can have just about anything I want for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I have a shower to use and clean clothes to wear.
I haven't died yet. God is keeping me alive for whatever purpose He has for me.
I can teach Bible study, attend church, and even watch a live stream on TV if for some reason I can't make it to the service.
I have family and friends who love me and care about what happens to me. I have a husband who loves me in spite of my defects. And I have a God who loves me so much that He died for me and then chose me before the world began to be one of His own.
Sorry about this rambling. I just felt that I needed to write all of this down and you were the perfect ones to spill my heart out to. Thanks for being here to listen to me. Or read me. I do appreciate all of you so much.
Kathy